the past few months has been insane. the next few weeks will be no better.

its been madness. everything has been happening so fast...in quick succession. i'm relieved the hols are here. its some relief. but judging by the homework, the pile of homework, it'll be no better.
everyone has been too busy with their stuff to say much on these things, these forums, these blogs. its hectic.
'tis hell of an rp system...is crazy. for the most elite students, for the smartest, the brightest.
but does this help or worsen? i dont know. really i dont know.
looking back, we'll say its fun. while we're in it, we're cursing.
so what is it? i do not know, really.

but through this time, i've learnt a lot.
the moaning and groaning. the comments by my mum. its given me something to look at.
while i'm in it, im seeing a lot more things, thinking a lot more stuff. but what really am i thinking about? the work? the time? the late nights?

this holidays are great. a sense of extra time to finish that equal amount of work. that's what it is.
this sec 3 life. has not been better (to whatever you read this as).
good bye.

Natura Artis Magistra

once in a very rare occasion, assembly actually has some meaning for me.
yesterday's assembly was one in accordance with humanities week in accordance with earth day.
so it was about nature and recent problems on climate change.
i actually found some of the things the 2 speakers spoke about very very interesting and meaningful.

the biggest thing i picked up was Natura Artis Magistra (i think he said natura magistra artis. i do not know if he or the internet is right).
its actually latin for nature is the mother of art.
at first i could not understand it but the speaker said in layman's terms it meant god's creation is the mother of man's creation.
whether or not his layman translation was accurate or not, i realised how deep that phrase meant.
the idea of art being man's creation (which is indeed very true) and nature being god's creation was something i thought to be really true.
then he went on to say after some time that buildings will fall while nature will live forever.
which again i thought to be really great.
the link and connection was something i thought to be true.

i've always thought nature to be the supreme being on this earth.
man stands on just a little leaf in the grand amazon.
but the problem is we do not help support life, we destroy it.
and we are actually the only specie that does it.
nature as well as all things on this earth is actually in equilibrium.
every specie balances out for another
every natural phenomenon equals out another (even the climate)
every natural instinct is actually for the sake of another.
every thing except man's theological and practical creations.
every animal in this kingdom help to support the life of another except for us, humans.
without, humans nature would really be at peace.
every thing was in equilibrium till man decided to advance themselves and not the rest of nature.

the action of every man against another man is actually just like any animal.
they fight for land, for power often resulting in death.
so actually man, as i see it, is just like any animal.
but no animal hurts nature. the killing of another animal is in fact equalising nature's growth.
but no animal hurts nature directly.
no animal except man.
which is why i feel man is nature's greatest enemy.

man is the greatest foe in nature.
every thing else rests in equilibrium.
much of man does as well.
but many a times we upset this peaceful equilibrium.
yet ultimately, i believe nature will triumph over man.

Truths. Accept them.

D day? What d-day? Doomsday?

pin pointing - its pointless.
there was so much that happened today, its pointless pin pointing.
to be honest there was nothing to point at.
nothing except for one thing-ourselves.
the ball was with us but now the pin is on us.
they-the blindless callers-did not open our hold.
they-the expected losers-did not pry open our hold.
we-the nervous losers-opened our hold to let that very thing within our grasp drop from beyond us.

tensions tensed the nerves of every single one.
teachers were flustered.
coaches were frutrated.
but we, or perhaps just i, was merely disappointed, dejected.
but the teachers, the coaches were right.
disappointed? dejected? what for?
face it.
we should be fuming with ourselves.

we let that go though it was within reach.
overconfidence.
scared and afraid.
hunger. where is it?
spirit, team spirit. was it ever there?

they the losing winners still supported and believed they could do it.
and they did.
we the winning losers stood watching, wordless.
no cheers till prompted and in the end, no words for we lost it.

face it. we were too confident we would make it through.
some got it right, it was a formality, the semis.
each and every year we would breeze past it.
this year all thought it to be the same.
but it just would not be.

team spirit. on the winning end, we did not continue our efforts of support.
on the losing edge we stood there waiting for the match to end.
where was that belief, that confidence in ourselves.
it just was not there.

hunger. on the players the supporters.
all assumed too much.
we were not starved enough to reach for it.
we were perhaps still too full.

was really the rain that caused our downfall? the stopping of our winning momentem while we were on a roll?
was it really just our bad luck (practically each and every year) that is was us, not them, that cracked under pressure? it was always to be us but was it really due to luck?
or was it just because today was the friday the thirteenth and lady luck (if she was indeed a lady) was not on our side?

i have to admit.
it was plainly us and no one else.
its a learning lesson.
its something for reflection, for change.
next year, its gonna be ours.

Friday the thirteen -
The dire need for success -
Hundred and ten per cent -

the rained off match on tuesday -
postponed to thursday -
the rained off match on thursday -
postponed to friday -

friday the thirteen -
the thirteenth of friday -
superstitously unlucky -
superstitously cursed -

but nay -
not for us -
it is a gift for them -
from us -

just one -
just one more match -
its all we need -
you can do it -

Hanging D on D-Day by a thread:

we're close to it. so close.
but no, its not as close as we think.
anything can happen.
i'll choose to say anything magical can happen for us, not against.
the odds are with us. the chances are on us.
we don't need magic to win
we need that belief, that hunger.

take them out--for us.
take it out--on them.
take us through--for yourself.

C'mon c div-you can do it.
we're looking up to you now.

Nervy Negativity

oh my. the c division had their semis today.
and what a day it was.
for the first time in a long long time, we meet acsi in the semis.
i do remember in the last 10 years there has been once that we got a bronze.
so that means that we've lost a group stage match before.
but in recent years we've always breezed through that stage--but not so this time.

we lost to acs barker because of a mess up in line up.
some one was sick so we had to change our line up.
and sadly we lost.
and so for the first time we meet acsi in the semis.

i guess it was not that bad.
we kinda expected ourselves to beat acsi because they do have good sec 1 imports this year.
where as we have 4. so it was huge boost.
and the thought about beating acsi in the semis (semis, mind you, not finals) was really enticing.
they gave the b div a 5-0 thrashing and a silver. we obviously would like to give them whatever we could--a 3rd or possibly 4th?

and so we faced acsi at kallang today. 10th of April 2007 at 2pm.
we started well. leading 1st 2nd singles and 1st doubles.
the first singles and doubles wrapped up quite well.
and pending the 2nd singles, we were waiting for the much anticipated win.
but it takes some time to reach that stage.
sadly, we had to deal with nerves and so went through a rather nervy time.
but it didn't stop there.

it rained. then we waited for it to stop. then we rolled the courts. then we warmed up. then it rained again.
take that and multiply by 2.
oh my. how horrid.

so we were hanging by a thread.
so close to winning...yet so far...
luckily for us. we have the upper hand.
with 3 more matches to go, just 1 more to comfirm our victory, we are up on 2 games and a hugely possible fight back in the 3rd match.
theres a huge possiblity we will and can win those 2 games, and a equal not less opportunity of winning that 3rd.

its really been a really nervy day with no ending yet.
its in sight, but not here.
and in this sport, as with any other, its not over till it really is.
i'm just hoping for the best.

i've been lazy to come here these days. or even use the comp for that matter.

this nice longer weekend is really nice.
been slacking around.
though there is some work to do.
finally finished with lovable romeo and juliet.
still have some lots of revision to do.

oh and all my new stuff is green.
new tennis shoes are green.
running shoes are green.
and now my specs are green.
hopefully it turns out nice. but i cant wait to get my green specs.
sighs. coming on friday!

apart from that, i've not gotten much inspiration to do anything lately.
dont feel like blogging.
have new ideas for Designer Arts, but not gotten down to doing it.
and loads of stuff. though i'm bity interested in writing plays again.
i realised how sucky my play-writing/wrighting was last year.
hopefully my writing matures this time.

thats all there is to report i guess...
well yes. man utd lost. sighs...

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